Little Ear aches and cameras!

So, I haven't slept in three days. Usually I am just an insomniac, but lately I have felt like I could sleep except my little man has been so fussy, sick and doesn't want to sleep a wink. So, I have been letting him sleep with me. Thinking maybe it would comfort him enough for the both of us to get some sleep. He sleeps just fine in my bed, but I don't!! I start to doze off and then there is a fist in my eye or a foot in my rib! So, after all of this I took him to the doctors and she tells us that he has an ear infection. My poor little man!! But one thing I splurged on this week is a new video camera! Maybe its just the sleep deporvation, but I had to have it so I splurged!! I saw that Mama Kat is having a give away and it is the new flip camera! Well, I never win anything so I thought I had to have one!!

Busy, busy, busy!

I have had a very busy two weeks!! I took a week off of work so I could go up hunting with my Dad! And for those of you that are offended I like my time with my dad and since I am a single mom it helps with food costs for me!

It looks like he is trying to help me out but he has this fascination with buckles!!

Got up to camp and all the guys were arguing about how to set everything up so I thought I would get a pic of that gorgeous land and me(with out make up that is very rare!).

Perfect location for the tent!

I got my deer and it had the bigest body out of the bunch! More meat in my freezer!!!

Then my mom's family all came out and they thought I needed a day off so I had a friend watch

Gunnar and they made me a bottom of the barrel bar maid!

Gunnar and Betty!

Creepy!

Snow and Shingles!

Fun!

When I look in the mirror...

It's funny, I have been beaten down by life for the bast four years. And I was thinking tonight. I am feeling good about my situation! I have my son, who loves me even when sometimes I don't feel like he does. I get my time with him. And I am in okay shape, to most people I am skinny and have the perfect body, but that isn't what I mean. I work out when I can to make myself feel better. I am single, but I do have men who like me. I have a house of my very own and I can pay all of my bills without flinching like when I was married. I am, I think, my prettiest. I just got my moles on my face removed. Not my Marilyn, but the two honkers that most kids like to point out are now gone! I look in the mirror and feel good. I am doing my best and God has made it work!! And I am so thankful for everything! Thank you Mama Kat for giving me the prompt!!!

What are you feeling guilty about?

I am guilty because I asked a friend(really a guy that has liked me since I had moved here), to babysit my son and he agreed and then confronted me about liking me. I asked him why he had never called. That I really had liked him and was alittle bummed when he hadn't called. And we started to talk for a few days and made it seem like the relationship he was in wasn't going anywhere. So I got my hopes up thinking if he was going to dump her then maybe he would want me. Yeah that didn't happen. He came over(as a friend thing, I am not some kind of hussy!) And he tried to get in my pants(he didn't!). And I asked him what he was doing and if he really wanted me. And he said that he loved her and that his boys love her and that he had invested way to much time in her. I feel guilty because I did it to my heart again. Men out here like to try to f@ck and chuck me and I don't get it!!!! I hate men!

Imagination is a Great thing!

So, I am sitting here eating a fresh tomato with salt and wanting to be whiny!! (pouty face!) So, I thought I would give my imagination some exercise!!HEHE The perfect man, what is that? I had to think about it so I came up with some things that he should be and act like!!

1. He will adore me, as I him.(not act embarrassed by me, ok so I am alittle dorky)

2. He will want to be around me.(From my last blog I am an attention craving poodle!)

3. He will act like a grown up(partying in fun but not every night, mama needs her beauty sleep)

4. Likes to go out and do things, but is just as comfortable sitting at home watching a movie.(I can't think of a smarta$$ comment for this one!)

5. He won't ignore me!(attention craving poodle!)

6. But at the same time he won't smother me!(attention good, obsession bad)

7. He has to love kids, even my spoiled little boy!(hehe)

8. He has to be responsible (bills paid, priorities, dumb grown up stuff we all have to do).

9. He has to love to have fun.(no bumps on a log!)

10. And last but not least, he must like to be goofy and laugh (remember I'm a dork)!

Now I really don't think that all this is unreasonable! And I am sure I could come up with at least a hundred more things, but that is off the top of my head! And if you know any one who fits this profile be sure to send him my way!LOL